I am a bit bah-hum-bug right now. I don’t even know if I should be sharing all of this as I am feeling quite emotional at this time. I have not enjoyed the holidays in several years. The hubster is not a holiday person to begin with. So for the last 8 years our holiday usually consists of the flurry of putting the tree up and getting it decorated. This is all grand and I love this part of the holiday. The hard part? Watching as it sits naked without gifts under it. This happens because my daughter is a teenager and so gift certificates are a major gift to her. And he and I do not exchange any gifts, except the letter he will write every few years. I know there is so much more to Christmas than gifts. But I would love to have an old fashioned Christmas filled with lots of gifts, the morning of opening gifts and exchanging gifts, a house full of family and friends, a big dinner where you just want to roll over and take a nap afterwards… The things I had as a young child. I am doing my best to keep things positive right now, focusing on my art instead of the whirlwind around me. I do not want a pity party. Believe me, that is the last thing I need. I am just saying that I am going to try to make this a good of year as possible even if it means just getting the heck out of the house on Christmas in order not to dwell on things.
On a much more positive note, I am working on a new blog about my weight loss journey and will be starting that on Monday. So bear with me.
I feel like I am jumping from project to project right now and not really finding what I need to fulfill me. I have decided however to take a step back from portraiture and focus on my fine art. I will not be quitting portraiture. If the opportunity comes alone, I will definitely take it. However, I feel that my heart lies in fine art and that is where my soul is telling me to focus. So prepare to see more art pieces vs. faces.